Well, at least that is what I have decided after an incredible "aha" moment today and a big breakthrough on a tough pose. After less than a year of dedicated yoga practice and a month long intensive teacher training I am doing things that I never thought would be possible and I am 90% pain-free at this time.
I was able to kick myself up into a full arm balance or handstand (adho mukha vrksasana http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/788 ), hold it for almost a minute and come down with a little grace. If someone had told me a year ago I would be able to do that, I would have thanked them for the confidence in me, but laughed it off for sure. My upper body strength and suppleness seems to grow daily. My core strength is getting really good. My legs are tightening up in a good way and loosening up where they should. Yoga has done wonders for my body. It has done wonders for my memory, my ability to focus and my overall attitude towards life.
So, now I am able to start seeing beyond the past limitations of my body and see that I am now ready for what comes my way and will be able to make a big list of new resolutions and goals that I will be able to meet and possibly exceed.
I am starting my list today....here's a taste of what I now believe is possible!
1. get up into headstand (sirsasana)
2. do a cartwheel
3. walk on my hands
4. arm balances
More to come for sure! I just feel strong, vibrant, confident, and completely able. The absence of pain seems to really be the biggest blessing and certainly lends me the optimism to truly believe that all things are possible now. I feel like at 46, I am only just beginning my life. Pretty incredible feeling, honestly.
Thank you yoga. Thank you fellow Seattle yoga students. Thank you universe. Thank you husband for allowing me to move forward with this with your full support. Thank you life. Thank you love. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Well the Iris painting got me all warmed up for this larger painting. It is exactly as I had hoped it would turn out. The flowers are really giving me an opportunity to stretch myself. I am thoroughly enjoying the process!
Decided to do a mini version of a painting I have had rattling around in my head for a few days. I haven't ever done something so small, but it was fast, fun and it gave me an idea of what to expect when I do the larger, full-scale version. It was fun!
No...these aren't romantic titles for my paintings, but I am so involved in the learning process, the feeling out of technique, the feeling out of my desires, inspirations, and ability to convey my feelings for the subject onto the canvas that I find each painting more of a study rather than an art piece. A lesson for me to learn from. A project to complete to guide me to my next project. I am so wanting the art to teach me about myself that I attach a title to the pieces that are purely descriptive. It helps me detach from it, step back from the easel so to speak and evaluate, learn, observe and feel.
It all started with a friend's little girl, her obsession with flowers and a need for a birthday gift. So, I came up with Mazie's name painting.
Then my sister and a good friend are both due to have baby boys on the same date in November, so I thought I would give them both something original for their baby and paint another name painting. So that is how Alex (my soon to be nephew) and baby Jacob McLeran got their paintings. It's kind of fun and it stretches me, so I will certainly keep on doing these!
Starting out with the gorgeous Gerbera daisies I fell in love with at the University district Saturday Market! I have more to come since I took many photos of all the lovely and abundant flowers there. Keep watching for more!
So after a full month of long, exhaustive yoga classes,
teacher training sessions, tedious audio/visual sessions, and many breaks at
the local coffee shop, I am happy to say I have completed my training and am
officially a 200 hour – RYT (Registered Yoga Teacher).
I have never been so delighted to complete a program in my
life. College doesn’t even compare to
the intensity and personal reward I have received from this experience. It was all in all a very good experience. There were some issues and difficulties, but
in the end I have learned a lot and feel pretty accomplished and pleased with
I appreciate the help of five exceptional ladies who not
only gave me the support and courage to continue, but the daring to attempt
poses I never thought I would be able to do.
Incredible souls who are caring, generous, loving and kind. They are all well onto a path of
enlightenment and a peaceful life. I
honor, respect and admire them. So rare
to encounter such amazing people in one place.
Something divine intervened and brought us together. I am sure about that!
So, as I prepare to take my loaded MINI onto the road and
head home, I find it a bittersweet ending to this training. I am so excited to go home, but sad to leave
behind my new friends. Much love to them
and much love to my patient and supportive husband waiting for me, keeping the
home fires burning.